The Bittersweet Proposal

I'm guessing we are too close to be any closer. I'm guessing that's the reason you shut me out of your life, leaving me alone with nobody else. Maybe things really do happen for a reason, of maybe this was something we both secretly wanted so badly but knew it wouldnt last. The days we never even knew eachother dont seem so bad if i look bad now, but the days we loved eachother in that familiar way, those are the days that bring back the most painful memories. Maybe its because we never talk anymore? Maybe its another reason. I honestly have no idea anymore, all i know is that i once wanted you to be the one i spent the rest of my life with. And i still feel that way. That's why im here pleading for you to accept this apology from me, for whatever i may have done. That's why im here, nervous as ever, curious as ever, and as fragile as ever, asking you from down here on one knee with that tiny little blue box in my hands. That tiny little blue box that every woman deserves to have at some point in their life. But you, more than anyone else, deserve that little diamond ring that rests inside that little blue box of yours. Will you marry me?