The Reason You're Reading This..

i think i have fallen completely head over heels for you. if only i could tell you how i feel. i dont because i am deathly afraid of the possibility of rejection. what if you are to tell me you dont love me back? what if you are to crush all my hopes and dreams that ive built up over time?

i gawk upon the perfection of your skin, the sweet scent of your musk. i feel as if i should be able to curl up to the shape of your body as we watch a movie in the dark. i feel as if our lips match perfectly together. i feel as if i am rightfully able to feel the shape of your neck. that perfect neck that just sits there, longing for me to graze my hand along its nape in attempt to comfort you when you're down. why did this have to happen to me? what did i ever do to deserve a person like you in my life? you are my angel, my love, my crush, and the reason i force myself to awake in the mornings. i could be sleeping in and rejoicing in my dreams, but instead, i jerk up and wait till i can see your face today. everytime i see your face, thousands of memories pour into my mind. the memories of the times when we were best friends. the memories of when we were together and nothing else could arrest our happiness. those were the days i long to return. to refill my life with joy. with comfort. but when those memories bring pain. it reminds me of the reason we arent together. the reason i wish both existed and didnt. i guess we are so close to one another, nothing more can happen. i wish it wasnt this way, but things happen for a reason i guess. thats what ive been told but i would like to believe otherwise. i'd like to believe in the fact that we can be together. we can be together and happy. be together and in love. i want that. until the day that you realize what is true from what isnt, i just wait here in the distance and hope, just hope and dream that you'll come around...